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Click Me

 Im currently 23 years old, ive graduated high school and college. Ive dealt with grief, happiness, love, and loss. Put in way to much time sitting at a desk, wondering when ill get the chance to use my education. Ive gone, been late, and even cut class a few times. Ive made some really great descisions and I have my fair share of not so great ones. Im a son, brother, sister, nephew, grandson, cousin, best friend, foe, ex-boyfriend (girl and boy), lover, hater, human. I judge myself more then I judge others. Im perfectly imperfect. I give people the chance to be themselves. Sometimes I sacrafice my own comfort for others. I miss certain people. I dont call because im afraid of being judged. I cant cry. I want to. I enjoy the small things in life.  Im a gay man. I usually laugh on the inside, before I realize that I should be laughing on the outside. I smile often. Im trying to re-build the bridges that ive burned. Ive ran out of bricks. I love my friends, all of them. I was the kid that you made fun of in high school. I lack the resources to start a social network. I have an idea for one. I think highly of myself. I dont take myself seriously. I asked god why, and he replied why not. Im successful, im broke. Im looking for love. I find myself quite boring, which is also quite funny because most people would say the oppisite. Sometimes I fake it. I know it all. The best thing you can say to me is to not say anything at all. Gossip is fun. Life for me is like running a 25K race on the beach. Its hard, it sucks, its a workout, sometimes you get splashed by the waves, sometimes your high and dry, but you keep running because you will eventually finish. Im on the third mile. Puns are fun. Id rather talk to you on the phone then text you. Emails are overrated. I want to help you. I accept you for who you are, and so should you. Love you

BFF's

PB + J = BFFS

I just wanted to take a minute to talk about best friends. I've known mine since freshmen year of high school, and were coming up on our 10 year friendship anniversary this fall. My best "buddy" which is what I call mine is my everything. She has been there through thick and thin and regardless of how bummed out I get she is always there for me. We've shared a lot of things together including the occasional verbal fight. However the best part of our friendship is that I don't have to talk with her every day to know what she's up to. We both pretty much know how the other one is feeling or doing because we have such a strong connection. Although we have had our share of tiffs, we always seem to get through it. Its nice to know that when it comes down to it, we both have a strong feelings for each other. Now there is one thing about my bff that will never change between us, and that is she will always be number 1. Of course that sounds a bit toady, but I promise it's true. The issue here is that I could not have another bff. Just like highlander said "there can only be one...". Now of course its not really a problem for me because I dont mind just focusing my attention on her. I guess what im trying to get at, which is what im trying to turn this blog into, is your feedback. Do you share a great relationship with your bff or is this person just someone that you hang out with a lot. Or maybe you have a group of friends that you click with and would also consider closer then usual. Or maybe your like me and couldn't/wouldn't be able to share that title with anyone else?

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Unemployed

Today is the first day that I have wanted to write anything since I left college. Ive been unemployed for 12 days now and cant find a job to save my life. Ive applied pretty much everywhere that I possibly could. "Sorry...we arent looking for anyone right now.." or "We are looking for someone with a little bit more.....experience...then you have." or "We are re-situating our structure and might be looking for people afterwards.....your application is good for 90 days, maybe something will pop up". You see I dont even need the manager to speak, because I can already tell by their lack of excitement/dull/uniform/uninterested body language that they dont even care. You see if college taught me one thing, that is to read people. There are three things I can tell right away when I meet someone, more importantly this is before they even speak a word. These being sexual orientation, personality, and if they are interested in me. (I apologize for the rant but I guess thats what a blog is for. I promise that im not using it soly for a place to demean society.) I just feel that this whole "unemployment epidemic" could be solved if employers just hired people. How could that be? well think about it, if every business hired atleast one person there wouldnt be anyone unemployed at all. Then people would be able to spend money and then the economy would actually fix itself. But instead my 4 years experience in the industry wasnt enough for a server position. Thats ok I understand that someone with two degrees is probably not able to perform the most basic tasks of a server. You know rolling silverware, filling salt and pepper shakers, asking someone if they needed more coca-cola. I guess those mundane tasks are to complicated. (I again apologize if this offended you, im not saying that im smarter then you, im just saying that almost anyone can be a server) OK....I feel a little bit better about myself now that I got this written down. All im saying is that everyone deserves a chance, so where is mine?

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